In our last IVF cycle where I was actually capable of receiving an embryo transfer, I peed on a stick. I figured what the hell, why not? It was one of the last times we would do it and I was feeling hopeful. I went to look at it, and couldn't tell if there was a second line or not -- it was fuzzy, I wasn't sure. I came back 30 minutes later and there was a faint line. Was it an evaporation line? Was I just a "little pregnant?" No way to know.
Saturday I woke up from a nap and felt...weird. My throat was super scratchy, I had a headache, I was foggy, and super bitchy. I sat there for a little bit on the couch while Bryce made dinner, and then went upstairs and tested. I'd gone to a conference earlier in the week and while I masked for most of it, there were social events where I got a little complacent, I was drinking and eating and schmoozing and I let my guard down. So I was like, oh god, this is what open bar gets you!
When I checked the test...there was a faint line. Almost just fuzzy, but definitely SOMETHING where I've never seen ANYTHING before. I looked at it under bright light, under my phone flashlight, and was like, Okay, this is it -- it finally got me.
Bryce and I did a little research and apparently, any line is a positive. No matter how faint. False positives are very, very rare (a percentage of 1%). So, I emailed everyone I'd spent time with in the car ride home from the conference and who I saw for even a moment without my mask on.
And then Sunday, I tested and it was negative. But I felt crappy and my throat hurt and my head hurt and I was tired and felt super heavy and sore in my bones. So I canceled everything I had early this week, including committee interviews for our new assistant principal, which I was very upset to miss.
Tested today... negative. What the what?
Is it possible that I fall in the percentage of a percentage point? Do I have superimmunity somehow? Did I get exposed and my body magically fought it off? I AM SO CONFUSED. I do know that I still feel like crap. I am following the protocol just in case, but what the hell is going on?
Why must all the medical things fall under, "huh, that's a mystery," for me?
If you have any insights, please leave a comment, I am flummoxed.
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